4.13.2012

Next Destination

Wow,,
I am going to the USA next month,time flies...just can't believe. I have been dreaming about it since i was a child. I'll write about it once i get my words.
Well, actually i really want to visit Japan and Italy, but i'll make sure my money is enough to pay my living expenses there. I absolutely have to save more.
Oh, i almost forgot my South East Asia countries that i want to visit, Cambodia and Thailand. I kind of afraid to go to Thailand because the earthquake struck yesterday, i feel uneasy.Before that, there was some terrorist issue.
I don't think i can go to Japan this year, i already have a big trip to the USA. Moreover, my brother starts his school this summer. A lot of things to think about. Well, i also need to get a new job (if i am lucky), since i really want a steady income.
This year i also won't go to Bali like i usually do. I've been missing it.
I miss the beaches (although i don't like sun bathing), but i really like easy breezy afternoon, when i can spend my time reading a book under a tree by the ocean. It was so relieving.
Well, this year is not too shabby, i am gonna visit the USA (i bought the ticket already),and also i'll stop for a while in Seoul, South Korea. I am not into K'pop fever so i don't find it really really attractive. But anyway, at least i can see Seoul.
That's all for now...i will be updating my trips and for sure a lot of pics...

4.12.2012

My Dream, I Just Have a Simple Dream (Please Lord, Let It Be)

God could not be everywhere, so he created mothers. – Jewish Proverb




Everyone has a dream that they want to fulfill,so do I. I have a dream that i want to share with my beloved people around me,it's not superficial dream it's not complicated either. I grew up in a simple family, but my parents always wanted the best for me. Therefore, i am trying my best for them. The only spirit that i have to struggle is my family.especially, my Mom. Everyone thinks her/his mom is the greatest hero his/her life. Apparently, i have the same opinion with them. I really want my Mom to be the happiest person as possible. I want to shower her with joys and happiness. She has been struggling her life for almost her whole life.

My Mom's childhood was not too happy like other people had, she had to take care of her siblings. She is the oldest girl in her family, so back then she had to provide daily chores to her entire family. My grandparents were busy with their works. My Mom had to take care of her brothers and sisters (she has 2 brothers and 1 sister). If I am not mistaken she also had to take care other family members who lived with my grandparents. She needed to provide food,to take care of their laundry, to clean the house and more. Her siblings were helpless. They were just lazy and spoiled.
On top of that, my granny was too stingy to give them enough money to eat.She was a cruel lady. Even now, she still has the traits.
My Mom used to give her own food to her siblings. Morever, she had to give up her degree just for letting her siblings go to school. I think her sacrifice was magnificient. Although, she did all those hard works, her siblings don't appreciate it as a good deed to remember, they act like brats. I just can't believe it, they sicken me with their selfishness and unrespectful manners toward my Mom. How cruel it is! Is a right thing to give after her sacrifice?. I just want God to give me a heart to forgive. I don't want to turn my life into a botomless hole of hatred. It's just not me.

She gave birth to me when she was very young, so i think her entire time is only for other people's well beings. I am thankful to have such an amazing Mom. Shortly, my Mom only lives to take care of other people, she doesn't have her own times to be a whole happy person.

My only dream is so simple, i want to make her happy. I want to give what she really wants that she didn't get. I will work so hard to pamper her with wonderful things that she can get, because she deserves it more than anyone else in the world. I will let her not to suffer. That's all. It's my dream, i don't want to be the most powerful, the richest, and the most succesful girl on planet Earth. I just want to ask, what she really wants ,what she really needs to be a happy Mom.

Sometimes, to make her happy according what i think is not exactly what she really wants. I am still searching for it...I Love you Mom..

My Skin Regime ( a survival kit for acne prone skin)



Hello it's me again...
Just want to share about my skin regime...
My skin is prone to acnes...(because it's so oily and sensitive)
I had tried a lot of skin treatments and doctors. It was frustrating, until last year i went to Hongkong (January,2011). I remember, i went to a small cosmetic counter in HK airport, my eyes were on a shelf, there were some cosmetic/treatment products that were familiar for me. I started reading one by one, (my skin was so in trouble, i guessed i was back from my ZA trip)i was so sad since i was having pimples and oily skin. I was really depressed by my skin condition. Everyone who has the same problem as mine, might have been sad. I remember some people called me a disgusting girl just because i had a lot of pimples on my face. It was heartbreaking.
Back to my story, i selected one product that was suitable for blemishes and acnes. It was a

Clinique product. The product is a lil bit pricey but it's worth trying.
Ever since, i've been using the products to treat my acne prone skin. The result is slow but it's not like having a treatment for a skin doctor that can cause addictive outcome. I kind a prayed to God at the moment, I prayed that buying the product was my last struggle to make my skin better. Then, God answered my prayer.

Clinique product for pimples (anti-blemish solution/anti-acne solution) is
not a product that can make your skin brighter or lighter like skin doctors' treatments. Maybe you will be dissapointed but it does help me to clear my face...I really want to share with people who are having the same skin problem as mine. I know that pimples on your faces can decrease your self confidence. It was a hard time for me, when i had to cover my face,and i tried not to look my friends/people when i was talking to them.The worst part was when people started looking my face and mocking/asking why i had a lot of pimples.
Now, i am grateful God gave me a small encounter with this product. I hope you can try it when you have blemish problems or they also have very good products for different skin problems. You can see it on: www.clinique.com

Although selecting good product for your skin regime, it's also important to do exercise and eat healthy food (don't eat oily food or fried food too much because it can stimulates your skin to produce oil). I always drink a lot of water, eat fruits and veggies. I believe it can help your acne prone skin.(check my pic, you can see my better looking skin)
So,,i wish you a better skin...

4.11.2012

I really don't get it


A friend of mine told me that she made love with a guy that she just met. Oh well, she is still in her relationship with her current bf. I just can't understand why people can do such thing. I don't want to get into anyone problems but i just can't get it.

I don't understand, why love isn't enough why we want more. Maybe i am a naive person, but it pisses me right off. It's not a joke when you hurt somebody's heart. You need to be considerate not just doing something that cause other people in pain. However, i feel sorry to her bf. He's a gullible person. Maybe when you are in love, you just can't listen and see the truths.
The bottom line is, when you feel you can't go with a relationship just end it, to be frank and you can start a new relationship. Remember, the things that are started by a lie/lies will end soon. For example, i saw many relationships based on betrayals and they were crumbled into pieces.
I hope everything will be fine at the end ,and they can get their peace of mind...

New Spirit on Easter Where I Found God (again)...

It has been hard to find a church to go if you a totally newbie in a new place. I experienced it, until last Good Friday, I searched some churches which are near to my apartment. I found a church nearby, not really close to where i live, i had


to take a bus/walk and take a train. I really wanted to attend a Good Friday service, it was a relief i went to it.
For me, a week before Easter is crucial, it's not about celebration but it's about how we commemorate Jesus as our Lord. I think i feel the real ambience in it.

I went to the same church for another service on Easter day, i came too early so i had to wait other people left the sanctuary room. Anyway, i made it on time. I really liked the sermon on that day. The preacher was a senior citizen, he talked smoothly with a lil bit Singaporean accent. Sometimes, It's hard to understand common Singaporeans when they are talking to me. Not because, their accent but also they talk so very fast. The preacher was Ronny Tan, he was a medium man with very calm yet passionate personality. He taught about how to develop Total Man (body, spirit and soul). I was surprised it wasn't about Easter theme sermon, but i did understand that the ressurection brought our lives in fully new perspectives, we should leave our old selves behind, because they died with Jesus in crucifixion.
As new men in Jesus, we should be able to live our life according Jesus' paths and also treasure our lives accordingly.

There are 6 steps to develop our total men inside us (new body, spirit, and soul since God has blessed us abundantly so we are not going to toss the blessings)
1. Understand God's Promises in proper perspective and balance
We are God's children so we have rights to claim our needs, don't hesitate to ask and communicate our needs to God but we also remember we have to understand His words. We can manage with balance if we read the Bible and pray everyday. Therefore, it's not embarrassing to talk with God as long as we commit to His words. (Psalm 37: 4)

2. Meditate and Partake of God's word (Psalm 37: 1-5)
In amidst of our lives, there are tears, joys, laughters but we need to take a time where we can contemplate and talk to God. We need to understand what God's intend to do with our lives and we should believe in Him. I remember, when our wishes don't work out, and we get frustrated and blame God for being mean to us. But, it's not that sometimes we have limits that we can't cross, we just need to be relaxed and let God do the rest. If He could create the World and its comlplexities and i believe that He can lift our burdens away.

3. Pray in the spirit habitually.
You already knew that praying is our intimate communication with God. Sometimes, when we stuck and don't know what to say we lose our words. But let it be,God leads us beyond our words. He knows what we really needs. Not only, tangible aspects of our lives but also intangible aspects. So, pray and communicate with God.

4. Cultivate the attitude of prayise regardless what happens
In life, we can face many deppressing situations, joyful situations and etc. Sometimes, we forget and blame the Lord for our misfortunes. We forget everything that he have provided for us. Our family, our health, our home etc. We just see Him bad whenever our plans don't work as we want. We shouldn't do it...i am trying to praise the Lord although it's hard when i am in pain or sorrow, but i believe as long as God still gives me health I can't ask for more. I always try to put myself in a reflection how if i were in bed, sick...i wouldn't do anything and it's terrible. That's why,there is always a simple thing to be grateful for.

5. Give God's word in the first place
Everything we do in our lives should be referred to God's word. We should apply those on our daily basis. Everytime when we want to make a decision for our problems, go to God and ask Him.

6. Cultivate Sensitivity to the voice of Holy Spirit speaking to our human spirits.
God talks to your spirit, you should hear it. Maybe in my opinion, it's our consciences, we understand when we in dilemmas God speaks through us. Not directly, but he whispers to our spirits. Don't ignore it. I believe we already know when there are some wicked things in front of us but instead of avoiding it we jump to it. We should listen to our hearts because God is there. It gives clarity to our decisions.

All in all, I was mesmerised and also slammed by the sermon. I just feel that i was avoiding God while he was trying to reach out. I am trying to be a total man in spirit,body and soul that needs efforts. But, i believe I can do it because i know God will lead and give me new hopes everyday...

How many Animes have i watched?


Yare Yare,
I didn't believe i was an anime freak, until yesterday. I was trying to recall all animes i have watched.I like most of anime genres so i watch different genres. However, i really don't like anime about card fighting tournament it's just so childish for me.
Here they are,,(and crap,,i lost count and started counting again)I don't think i can do chronological order, since i watched old animes recently...
1. Samurai X
2. Inuyasha
3. Doraemon
4. Crayon Shinchan
5. Nodame Cantabille
6. Gundam (i don't remember which one)
7. One Piece
8. Naruto
9. Naruto Shippuden
10.Nana (so far this is my favorite jousei)
11.Death Note ( i finishd reading the manga when i was in high school and now considering to watch its anime, which is a lil bit hard to do since i already knew the story, but sometimes the story is slightly different in anime version)
12. Fairy Tail
13. Beelzebub
14. Bokura ga ita
15. Natsume Yuujinchou (loved it)
16. Fruit Basket
17. Honey and Clover (i am working on it)
18. Wolverine ( i was curious with this one, it's a Marvel comic but it has Japanese /anime version, it was okay..but it's so funny since all western characters speak Japanese)
19. Perfect GirL Evolution
20. Hunter X Hunter
21. Ranma 1/2
22. Sailormoon
23. Rantaro
24. Bleach
25. High School DxD
26. Elfen Leid
27. Blue Exorcist ( it was very good in the beginning but i found it boring, so i quit watching)
28. The Last Air Bender
29. Saint Seiya
30. Saint Seiya Omega
31. Slam Dunk
32. Nurarihyon no Mago: Sennen Makyou
33. Usagi Drop
34. Cardcaptor Sakura
35. Hiiro no Kakera (still waiting the new episodes)
36. Dear Boys
37. Pokemon
38.Rental Magica
39. Well, i'll be back updating my anime list...i am trying to remember all..

Cheers